Thursday, November 25, 2010

Thursday, November 18, 2010

Just call me Dora

This morning I went to Autumn's preschool to help with the Thanksgiving Feast. As I walked onto the playground, a little girl (pictured right beside me in this photograph) called to me, "Aunt Dora, Aunt Dora."
I looked behind me, but I was the only adult standing there. She kept calling, "Aunt Dora," so I walked over to where she was at the swing set and asked her if she was talking to me. She said, "Yes, you're my Aunt Dora." I thought she was just playing with me until her teacher said that I look like one of her aunts. I said to her, "I'm not really your aunt." She said, "Yes you are. You're my Aunt Dora and I saw you last week at a party." She was serious and continued to call me Aunt Dora as she asked me to play with her, push her on the swings, ride with her in the helicopter. It was hilarious! I didn't even get to play with my own daughters because this little girl kept me occupied! I guess I must have a twin somewhere in Ojai.

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Autumn Is Five!

Autumn Brooke turned 5 today. She celebrated at preschool with her little friends. I brought pumpkin mini-muffins that Amber and I made. They were a hit! After school, Amber gave Autumn her present--a Strawberry Shortcake doll that used to be Amber's doll. Amber knew that Autumn wanted it, so a few weeks ago when Amber was giving away toys to the thrift store, she set aside Strawberry Shortcake and surprised Autumn with it. After Eric got home, Autumn opened the present from us--roller skates. Last month, we took Autumn rollerskating with Young Life and she loved it, so Eric wanted to get her a pair of skates. She was so excited that she took a little spin outside in the dark, with some help! Then we went to Autumn's favorite restaurant for dinner--Sea Fresh. I think she just likes it because of the stuffed fish and big shark on the wall! She had such a fun day that she fell asleep on the 10-minute drive home!

Monday, November 15, 2010

This is all that I can say

Sometimes someone else can say exactly what you are feeling at the moment, and sometimes say it even better than you can. I found this to be true as I was on my walk today, listening to my iPod, tears streaming down my face, feeling like my heart has been ripped out.

Both my mom and Eric's mom are battling terminal cancer right now and they may leave this earth a lot sooner than I want them to. Lately, my morning walks are my most difficult times to process this grief as I have a lot of silence (even with the music playing in my ears) and 2 1/2 miles to think about these incredible women God has blessed me with. This morning when this David Crowder song came up on my iPod, I was tempted to skip it because it's a very slow song, but I decided to let the words minister to my aching heart. The third verse is what really spoke to me. Through all of this mess that doesn't make any sense to me, Jesus is crying with me. God is holding me.

All I Can Say by the David Crowder Band

Lord I'm tired
So tired from walking
And Lord I'm so alone
And Lord the dark is creeping in
Creeping up to swallow me
I think I'll stop, rest here a while

And this is all that I can say right now
And this is all that I can give
And this is all that I can say right now
And this is all that I can give
That's my everything

And didn't You see me crying?
And didn't You hear me call Your name?
Wasn't it You I gave my heart to?
I wish You'd remember where you sat it down

And this is all that I can say right now
I know it's not much
And this is all that I can give
Yeah, that's my everything

I didn't notice You were standing here
I didn't know that that was You holding me
I didn't notice You were crying too
I didn't know that that was You washing my feet

And this is all that I can say right now
I know it's not much
And this is all that I can give
Yeah that's my everything...